help me rock this world

2010-03-14T21:10:00.000-07:00

So much has happened in the past 2 weeks plus. OAC has come and gone. It wasn't that bad and i'm glad i got the courage to do one of the high obs.Zipline as SO fun! I was really scared at first but decided to go p and i'm glad i did! It's such a rush, going down. Thanveer and I actually made a pact, (because we're both scared of heights) we decided that if one person goes for something, the other must. Like, all or nothing. If one doesn't want to go, the other doesn'tas well. The holidays are here.

Thank God for that. I don't think i could survive another week without holidays. Oh, and on Saturday, I went for 2 plays. To Kill A Mockingbird and Common Cents. Mockingbird was from 3pm till 5pm and then Common Cents was from 7.30pm till 9.30pm. Commn Cents was okay, it catered mostly to kids but there were some funny moments. Mockingbird is directed by Goh Boon Teck, same as the one for The Crab Flower Club. Personally, I feel that the Crab Flower Club actors were better in protraying their characters than the actors in To Kill A Mockingbird. In terms of costumes, the two plays are total opposites. Crab Flower Club has rich vibrant-coloured costumes while Mockingbird has a full grey, black, white palate. But you can't compare the 2. They're totally different. East and West. The ending of To Kill A Mockingbird was, for me, he best part. It was really dramatic. The starting was great too...

For Common Cents, there were only five of us from ELDDS. Nabilah, Pradeeptha, Jasmine, Anthea and me. So few! And almost all the EL members were so enthusiastic about it when they first heard it but they didn't get a ticket. I was just "uh...okay lah, since everyone is going then i go..." and in the end, only five of us! Are you KIDDING ME?

Anyway, for literature, we have 2 projects. ugh. homework. Its not a holiday to students. It's just days you don't have to physically be in school. The workload is practically the same.

Ahh well, thats it.

Song of the Moment: Second Chance, Shinedown

2010-02-09T02:06:00.001-08:00

Hi again. I don't think anyone actually reads this after my months long hiatus before my previous post. anyway, i had to rush off on sunday so i'll just do a follow up post now.

Turns out, i got full marks for me re-pop quiz. Thank goodness Mr. Tay striked question 3 out because of typing error. hehe.

Half of chinese test over today. Wasn't too bad.

I don't really know why i feel this way but it seems like life is trying to push me away from my dreams. I think i have finally found out everything i want to do and achieve in life but living here, its as likely as flying rats. (okay thats a weird saying but its like that) I know i have to get out of this soon but how do i make a move and start on what i want? The environment we're brought up in just does not allow for this. I want the world to here me. and what i have to say. I want people to be able to relate to everything i say. I can't...I don't know. I just can't think right now. How am i supposed to take action was school is pulling me away?

Today school was okay. Denise and i had some laughs.

"And I promise myself, I am nobody's. I just wanna be free. And I promise myself, even though it don't always come easy." Promise, Vanessa Hudgens

What a place we live in.

2010-02-07T01:18:00.001-08:00

Just a quick post before I go and get ready for family reunion dinner tonight. I can't stand life right now. Everyone thinks that they're needs are the ones I have to attend to first. Please, take a number and i'll be with you shortly. ELDDS is stress right now. Must teach sec ones. Have to work so hard with the people im doing the scene with. I have no time to memorise my lines. Im having trouble with simultaneous equations in maths, which i thought was my best topic for maths but obviously not because it seems like i'll have to do a re-re-pop quiz. Literature is manageable. I don't see the point of English lessons. Chinese is stress hell because its HIGHER CHNESE.

Chemistry seems okay. I'm learning, i guess. Biology is not too bad, but its not going that well either. Social Studies/History elective is okay. Actually, I'm okay overall. i am having to work so hard at pulling my group together. I really hope i dont get scolded if my lines are not totally memorised.

Please note: Debate, is not only about arguing. Drama, is not only memorising.

Life sucks now. I know i'm just complaining now but i have to get it out o my system. School never seemed so bad. I dont think its to do with being sec 3, it's just that i've finally found something i like to do and it seems like my dreams will never be.

2009-12-09T05:17:00.000-08:00

Oh goodness, havent updated for so long cos im lazy. People who have been reading will probably have dropped me off the face of the earth by now. Anyway, updates, I will most probably have to get braces and im scared because what if it affects the way i speak? wait...Hillary should have gotten hers by now...i'll ask her. I feel so listless these days. Oh, heres one or two resolutions for the coming year: Be WAY more committed to ELDDS, I will stand by my CCA even more especially because I haven't been a good member. Also, focus on studies as well so that, as my mum says, it will "open doors" for me and i can actually choose.

Heads up to Twilight fans: I'm NOT sure but let me just say something. I was just watching Law & Order season 2 episode 2 and the one of the two victims is called Edward Cullen. Thats right, word for word, same name. Which makes me wonder...Since its original airdate was 24 September, 1991, which is most likely before Stephanie Meyer wrote Twilight, could she, or could she not have copied the exact same name for her character? She only wrote the book in 2003. So if any Twi-hard out there knows if this is true, let me know. Just thought it was interesting.

Well i have nothing left to say except wish me no pain for my dentist appointments!

Song of the Moment: Gravity, Marie Digby

2009-09-25T05:22:00.000-07:00

haven't posted for so long. so much going on and trying to study for EYEs...

Firstly, thank god art project is over

Okay, this post is long overdue so forgive me if i talk about old news. I only just managed to catch the full length VMAs and Now, I realise I am not going to talk bad stuff about Kanye West anymore. You wanna know why? Because whenever his video was nominated (Love Lockdown), the audience just booeed him directly. When he came on to present an award, pple started chanting "Taylor, Taylor, Taylor" and he must have felt like crap then. So i figure hes gettin enough flack for what he did since pple can't stop talking about it.

F1 weekend is here, i didn't feel anything but i just saw the very last part of the practice session 1 and when i saw those cars racing down Singapore streets, I just had a sense of pride. So happy for Singapore.

Oh wait. Greenday's performance at VMAs? They were the best performance. Confirm.

Ok. i can't think of anything else now. todays song of the moment is for Nurin, Su Wai and Hillary.

Song of the Moment: Body Language, Jesse McCartney

2009-09-01T06:16:00.000-07:00

STEP UP

OMG. i watched Step Up 2: The Streets again yesterday night... I LOVE Step Up and Step Up 2. The dancing is sooo good. and the music just makes you wanna get up and dance. AHHHH!!!! BTW, casting directors of Step Up 2: The Streets, why why why and thank you thank you thank you for casting a not so good-looking guy as the main guy, Chase. He can actually DANCE. Thank god you casting directors didn't compromise the dance aspects and chose a not so good looking guy who dances extremely well. Briana Evigan, the actress who plays Andie, the main girl, is so Pro. I wish I could dnce like them...lol. OKOKOK I've said enough. Stupid ranting.

Song of the moment: Step Up, Samantha Jade

2009-08-29T20:02:00.000-07:00

ROSE brought the house down! Yup. We won cheerleading AND champion house. Seriously, what more can we win? We've taken it ALL.

After Sports Day, Me, Yet Peng, Hsu Chieh, Yen Yin, Shearin, Jynn Lin all went to J8 to watch The Proposal. It was ok. Like Shearin said, " It's sooooo chick flick" i think its way too cliche and needs more funny elements. Anyway, after that, went home, showered, ate, and went for THE CRAB FLOWER CLUB play! It was AWESOME. The actors, only 5 women, were really good. Their diction was so clear and you just immerse into the performance. It's that good. There were some funny lines and just that extra touch of vulgarity which just made the performance so good. Everyone gasped each time vulgar words were used. Quite funny.

I LOVE ELDDS!

Had so much fun. I am now pondering Teachers' Day stuff. Bleurgh. Can't think. Oh yeah. When people say that when they visited their old school, and they feel old, I think thats utter crap. For example, Person A says "I just visited my primary school. I feel sooo old." and shes in lets say Sec 2 or 3, She is saying, "I am acting cool cos i feel special cos i was surrounded by younger kids who look up at me. Teachers also made me feel wanted. I therefore have the right to act cool." Last time I checked, being 2 or 3 years older than others does NOT make you feel old.

Anyway, I read a paragraph dedicated to Subject Y in Shearin's blog. So True.

" The magic is in the mystery. Once you know, the magic is gone, and so is the mystery." Hatching Pete (movie)

Song of the moment: Don't Leave, Vanessa Hudgens

2009-08-21T03:55:00.001-07:00

Hello. I am not able to post often because of my busy schedule. CTs over. just. finally. thank goodness. Actually, i realised i have not much to say. oh yeah. Yesterday, me, Shearin and Kim went to watch Up in 3D!!! it was great although the 3D specs are so high tech, that their heavy and everything so u gotta hold them. kinda uncomfortable. but...the effects are INCREDIBLE. wait...i just forgot what i wanted to say...oh, i got it now.

Every day that passes, I enjoy being in 2N even more. I don't know what things will be like without 2N people next year.

I've only known you for 2 years, seems like an eternity.
Cos really, I know you and you know me.

Yup. It's true. Love you 2N!

I'm sorry Wendi, for not giving you a present...Happy Birthday anyways.

Sitting next to Hillary in class is like enduring torture day after day. I realised I am now a victime of abuse. Her punches are PAINFUL. I get 3-5 or more eveyday. depending. and it hurts a little the next day but theres never any bruise! Come to think of it, I didnt get a punch today. THAT's weird.

I shall now say random true things

I LOVE MARIE DIGBY! SHE'S SO TALENTED!
DEMI LOVATO AND TAYLOR SWIFT ARE OVER-RATED BUT I'M OK WITH THEM
JONAS BROTHERS ARE SO OVER-RATED AND I DONT LIKE THEIR MUSIC THAT MUCH ALTHOUGH I'M SURE THEIR NICE IN REAL LIFE
I LIKE MIRANDA COSGROVE
I LOVE 2N
I LOVE WHERE I'M SITTING IN CLASS
I WANT BETTER THINGS IN LIFE
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO PLAY FOR MUSIC ASSESSMENT

I'M SORRY LAO SHI, FOR ANY PAIN I'VE CAUSED.

signing off now.

Song of the moment: Feel, Marie Digby

2009-08-05T06:11:00.000-07:00

I really dont know where to start, probably cos i haven't posted for so long. It's been a whirlwind of stuff for me, happy, sad, angry, frustrated, its all there. I'm guessing no one reads my blog but i shall continue to post in case i have (any) faithful readers out there. (which i doubt)

Express yourself day (EYD) has come and gone, two chinese tests have come and gone, one maths test has come and gone, one english TA has come and gone. Basically, we're preping for EYEs it a hard time but I know i'll always get throught it. Celebrations for National Day are on friday and...i guess thats almost it. oh yeah. Our new coach, Trish, is really nice. AND she knows Russell Peters?! I'm not joking. EL is fun But Maisarah has left. I feel like its so empty without her. Plus, I have to send her something which I forgot about...

Anyway, lately i've been thinking about where I would have liked to live by now. USA. I can't really go into details but I sometimes wish i'd been born here but uprooted to the US when i was younger, like, 8, or something. I have dreams, lots of them, big dreams which people would scoff at. but to me, I just strive to get through everyday, knowing that i'll be closer to those dreams. I never knew how strongly i felt about this kind of thing until now. Oh yeah, and i've started to write songs, well kind of, but stupid songs like stuff about chocolate. I sometimes write other kinds but rarely see it through.

Missing you, Maisarah

Song of the moment: You're Not Sorry, Taylor Swift

2009-07-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

It's funny that after knowing someone for several years, you suddenly just cut each other off. If you think about it, what has those years done for you if you can just leave like that? But it happens. Maybe we become too busy and absorbed in our new world and forget the past stuff. Maybe what we have was never anything. We carry on, ignorant to all these people even though when you sign in into MSN and a message pops up saying that shes signed in. Or even when she leaves a tag, we never respond. We slowly fade away. Each merely a faint memory in each other's mind. Maybe it's because none of us bothers to take the initiative, thinking "she'll contact me if she wants".

2009-07-01T19:41:00.001-07:00

Oh my...Kevin Jonas is now engaged to his longtime girlfriend Danielle Deleasa. Congrats to them but seriously...The Jo-Bro is 21 and Danielle is 22. Isn't that a bit young? But I guess he has more money now than most people will ever have and money is always part of why pple don't get married right...? And since when was a 2-year relationship called "longtime"? They only met in 2007. But i trust that Kevin knows what hes doing...Congats to them!

Next, Robert Pattinson, STOP BREAKING KRISTEN STEWERT"S HEART. Seriously. The two twilight stars are meant to be together. And they are. But Pattinson has been seen with his co-star of his next movie, Remember Me. The co-star, namely, Emilie De Ravin, has been seen 'getting close' with the Twilight star. Well, really, they were kissing. Poor Kristen was not in the same area as she was elsewhere shooting another movie. Emilie has been seen wearing clothes alike to Kristen's which makes LOTS of pple wonder if shes trying to get Pattinson by being like Kristen. Whats worse, Emilie plays Pattinson's love interest in Remember Me. Kristen is way prettier than Emilie. Kristen Stewart is more worthy to Robert Pattinson than he is to her. Also, I really like Kristen's style.

Moving on, since i'm on LOA, I cant go for the first EL session of Term 3, so sad...Today, they're supposedly gonna introduce the new teacher-in-charge plus new coach which is exciting but quite frankly, I don't really like coaches. Then again, our acting will seriously improve with one. I'll definitely post more later when I have the details!

I really dont wanna type anymore now, heh. So i'll sign off now!

Song of the moment: Knock Knock by Lenka

2009-06-29T19:04:00.001-07:00

Okay...I haven't really posted for sometime. The holidays have been busy, yet fun at times. Basically, there have been many things I wanted to post but never did...so prepare for a longer post! I guess I should start...here.

I am a fan of crime shows, mainly because my mum watches and tapes them all (well, almost). Recently (a few weeks back, actually), I watched the episode of CSI (Las Vegas) with Taylor Swift guest starring in a role. Though her acting was OK, I really feel like she should stick to singing, which is definitely what she was born to do. Her acting wasn't bad, but really, I don't want her to end up as an actress-singer-songwriter because I think that adding acting to her singing career might make her music lose its special touch. Other singers can do that but I really don't want Taylor to as it'll have an effect on her singing career. (wow, i sound so weird...)

Anyway, I actually left the country, the last week of the hols but I am now ordered to stay away from school for seven days after the day i came back...So, i'm stuck msn-ing Yen Yin and doing "home-based learning".

Michael Jackson died. OMG. I can't believe it. Its hard to let it sink in. His dancing was probably the best ever. Too bad that his death overshadowed Farrah Fawcet's...RIP both of you...

I feel like signing off, so i will... Todays song of the moment is a tribute...

Song of the moment: Black or white, Michael Jackson.

2009-06-03T20:07:00.000-07:00

AHHHHH! I just saw something totALlly and utterly weird. I think everyone should know the song Single Ladies (put a ring on it) by Beyonce Knowles. and the many spoofs by celebrities. The famous (or infamous) one being the 'music video' by Justin Timberlake. But that is nothing compared to this newest spoof...By the Jonas Brothers. Or namely, only Joe Jonas. Its part of this countdown to their new album release, Lines, Vines and Trying Times. Joe was asked to lip-synch and dance to 'Single Ladies'. AND YES. He is WEARING heels. Its is Weird with a capital 'W'. Here is the link... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86CBhQL5pVc&feature=player_embedded

Seriously, the dancing is NOT good. in fact, it makes him look like a sap... Well, enjoy! (or not)

Song of the moment: None now. just wach the bizarre video...

2009-05-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

I AM ASHAMED...

Because I can't use the chopsticks correctly... Yes. I can't. The correct way is separate parallel chopsticks. Mine always cross.

Yes. I've been wanting to post this for some time. Yes. I was too lazy to. But I feel i need to say this. I'm not trying to go all (as people say) "cheena" but this is quite basic.

It's like when you see a Chinese, you expect him/her to be able to hold the chopsticks correctly and use them well. I can't. I feel like if I can't hold my chopsticks, i am letting myself down.

You may think i'm weird to say all this but i truly feel this way.

So, I have told myself that from next time onwards, I will use my chopsticks correctly. (or just TRY to...)

I'll post an update! ;)

Wow

2009-05-28T05:38:00.000-07:00

Haven't written/ typed for sooo long. tmrw is the last day of the firs semester of schl. Term 2 went by way faster than term 1. it seems like i just started sitting next to CYP last week! I've had a hectic but fun month and i love going crazy in class, especially MT cos it really makes my day so much better and makes me smile. I guess I should say...hmmm...apparently Maisarah might still be going off :( unfair.I can't stand not having EL i miss the sessions. especially preparing for SYF. It became a part of me. Though I didn't think I would miss this yr's sec 4s so much, i think EL will be so different without them...

I must sound so obssessive...almost every post mentions EL but i LOVE CEDAR ELDDS! whoo! and i know the other sec twos do tooo!

Oh yeah, we had a video conference with a motivational speaker, Dion Jordan in school, as a class. He is in America and it was like 9 plus pm there when he was conferencing. It was quite cool. His motivational speech wasn't as boring as the usual ones we get. I guess thats why they say he's one of the Top 10 speakers in the circuit...cos his speeches are interesting and don't make u wanna sleep.

We have so many projects going on in school and holiday hw is piling up! But i'm still gonna try to have some fun and relax during the hols. next saturday is my birthday! woohoo! so random but still exciting.

I am so nervous for music presentation tmrw!!!

BYE!

Song of the moment: Boom Boom Pow, Black Eyed Peas

2009-05-19T05:51:00.000-07:00

wow. Again,i havent written in ages...Farewell was sad. When they announced Maisarah was leaving, i burst into tears and cried so hard....but today, i found out...shes not leaving!!!!! i am soooo SUPER HAPPY!!!! OMG! so releived, cant think of EL without her. i'm actually supposed to plan my chinese compo now but i cant bring myself to. actually, we were supposed to do in class today but i just left the book blanmk through the whole lesson and tmrw we only get 20 minutes to write but whatever...

EL is cancelled for 2 weeks due to sec 3s having mid years. i wish we had sessions!!!!!

I guess not much to say so i'll just sign off...for now...

Song of the Moment: She is, The Fray

2009-04-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

Wow. I havent typed anything in ages. I guess its since we got te SYF result. COP. We cried so badly but i guess we're over it now. We are just focusing on farewell for the sec 4s. Everythings fine i guess...only CTs are coming up. So much to study!!!This swine flu is getting worse each day. It'll be a pandemic son. Maybe they'll close school down...then we'llhave to go to school during the hols like the SARS period. that was the first time i had a birthday in school! Nothing much to report. So I guess i'll just sign off here.

Song of the moment: Homecoming, Hey Monday

And the results are...

2009-04-23T06:01:00.000-07:00

We don't have the results yet. So anti-climax,isn't it? i feel the same. Hopefully itstmrw. Track & Field Championships were today. Result:
C girls, Silver
B girls, Bronze

Thanks to the Cedarians who tried their best.It feels lousy that St. Nicks got one up on us for both...

Anyway, I forgot to bring my History homework home to complete so i'm gonna die tmrw. Nice. What apleasant way to end this anti-climax day.

Well,thats all i'm saying...

Song of the moment: Skipalong, Lenka

2009-04-22T01:05:00.000-07:00

Hello!!!
First off, i wanna say that yesterday's EL session was so much fun!!! For the first part of the session, i listened to some cool music fromShanice's laptop. Then, the ex-co announced the new ex-co and some other stuff. Followed by taking inventory of our prop stuff. Found a cool stage manager's book in the storeroom. it looks really nice, kinda professional. Almost makes me wanna be a stage manager but NO. I still love acting! After we were dismissed (early), the sec2 drama pple started to do stuff for farewell. I had SO much fun. We were laughing and talking and just goofing off.

Apparently our SYF results are tmrw. I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY EXCITED. But won't it be so anti-climax if its not tomorrow? lol. I think i totally flunked my chinese test. I swear i'll work harder to do well for MT.

Chinese presentation didn't go too well today. When they started asking questions, i was totally stumped. Usually, I can think quite well on my feet but today was a total blockage!

Anyway, I think thats all. Today's song of the moment is all thanks to Shanice!

Song of the moment: Cops and robbers, The Hoosiers

Today is Earth Day!!! Go Green!

2009-04-17T07:26:00.000-07:00

hey...nothing much today actually. I just felt like typing stuff...so random. I guess i do feel like we are all confined sometimes, by expectations set by others. Who says we have to listen, right? But whats stopping us from doing so? Whats confining us is ourselves. We can choose to step aside from the path drawn out for us, but it takes a lot of strength, determination and the want to leave the path. We need an opportunity.

I guess what happens to many people is that they give up on dreams, forget about them and be happy stuck in a job with a low chance of promotion, a family and just a stable income. I'm not saying thats bad, but i think these people, every single one of them, has had a dream which they gave up on. I can't say i'll acheive my dreams at this point in time but i'm definitely gonna work for it.

ELDDS is great, I like being able to wave at juniors and seniors freely, unlike other CCAs. Just today, I was walking by Vanessa, Geraldine and Syahirah who were with friends and i waved. Then Vanessa was so engrossed in whatever she was talking about, she said something else instead of my name. It was SO funny!!! I totally cracked up cos thats just the way Vanessa is.

I am stressed at times
While others i'm not
But friends make me happy
So I smile a lot

They save me from danger
They are lights in the dark
They share my moments
They console my heart

By now you should have already seen
My friends mean everything to me

Song of the moment: Wonderwall, Oasis

2009-04-16T06:17:00.000-07:00

Stress gets to me. Its kinda ridiculous that for chinese spelling(ting xie), my chinese teacher asks us to learn words from two passages and she doesnt tell us which words are gonna be tested. ahhh well...I guess you could say i'm pretty stressed out. But i'm trying to make my life seem a little better by being more CRAZY,laughing more, and trying to chill.

I love school actually, but its just the work. Sometimes I feel like i just want to leave all this behind and do something totally new, and different. But all of us are trapped in this school, in this workplace, wherever. Theres a term you must complete before u can try anything new. People who can't finish the term won't get to be open to choices. Thats the deal.

Song of the moment: Don't forget, Demi Lovato

2009-04-14T06:01:00.001-07:00

I have decided to revive this blog.
I have decided i don't really care how many peopl read my blog. I just want to say what I feel.
I have also decided to not have links. Maybe later on,then i'll add only important ones. like EL (DDS) blog! Oh well... I guess I should start this revival by saying WHY i am reviving this blog.

Its mainly cos of today's ELDDS session. It was campaigning time for the Sec 3s to become ex-co members and some of their stuff really moved me.

I like how they were always there for each other, all in it together. The Sec 3s are so bonded and I can really see that they care for each other. Sharianty's speech made me question my passion for EL...I found myself asking questions like 'Do I love ELDDS?' and I realised, that i do. I really do. The Sec 3s inspired me. I really want my level to be bonded so i'm definitely gonna try and make some tiny changes, just for a start. Though my level is not bonded, I still am beginning to feel very at home during EL sessions. EL is probably the most warm and friendly CCA you'll ever find.

I think thats about all I want to say today. Its all I need to say.

I LOVE CEDAR ELDDS!!!

2009-03-18T23:38:00.000-07:00

HELLO HELLO! Well, its actually been 2009 for quite some time but...heres an update.

Many projects, which are irritating me.

SYF!!! Fun, work, work. Thank you Vanessa for your goofing off!

I should really study harder

Its actually the March hols and its ending but...i havent even started on holiday homework yet! i've been having SYF practice everyday (today's thursday) and everytime i get home, i just wanna sit in front of the TV and slack. Im gonna do work today though.

Theres actually no SYF practice tmrw, but i gotta go to school ANYWAYS cos I have to do D&T project with LAurA. So Sian man... Like, because i havent been on my blog for really long, no ones gonna read this...

Today's SYF prac was just sittijng around, going for a ridiculous run, painting sets and buying stuff. I have to NOT wear specs for SYF so i'm either getting contacts or just not wearing specs...

AVRIL LAVIGNE MUSIC IS GOOD!

Bye for now!

2008-11-17T01:26:00.000-08:00

Hello all! (which is not alot of pple)

firstly, i am waiting for my piano teacher. i tried to get it cancelled but i wasnt allowed. hmm...homework situation...dire, tight, dunno if i can win the bet...

Sorry actually doesn't undo what has been done. But it does make it better cos people will know you are trying to amends and that you care...right? uh...random thought lah.

I am still calling out to magic fairy person to poof my hw away! hello??? Miss going to school with 1N. You guys are the BEST!

...I really must buy Inkdeath when possible....wow. this colour is nice but pale...

Thought for the post: What goes around, comes around.
Trust me, it's true.

i wanna watch so many movies...haven't made time yet...ugh...OKay, i think thats it...
Be happy!

Hugs and stuff!

2008-11-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

Hello!!! Yes, i am back after along (and mysterious?) absence. now. i have been begging su wai for the geog homework to be uploaded/sent to me asap cos i have this bet abt schl hols hw with my mum. stupid bet...i have been chasing and chasing and chasing and i think i might get it today or tomorrow. finally... BUT...

1N, i am so terribly sorry for letting you guys down with the whole extra geog homework thing. The thing is, I did check that day, but it wasn't there. I figured anything that had to be given out had been put in already. Sooo...I guess the extra geog homework came after i checked the mailtray. So very sorry!!!

Anyway, i am quite ok...i guess... I'm HAPPY that Obama won the elections! But then, i sort of knew he would win. McCain chose the wrong partner so its kinda expected.

I am trying really hard to wish all my schl hols homework away, or at least wish it done. but its not gonna happen isit? (Magic-y Fairy Person out there, i'm calling out to you!) *sigh* I guess i'd better start before i lose that bet. Stupid bet...

Went shopping today with mum. Bought nice shoes. had a surprise visit from someone long ago. bored...

Ho-hum...wasting time. wasting time.

I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MUSIC
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT CHOCOLATE
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT TV
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT BOOKS
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT WATER, FOOD, AND AIR

I CAN LIVE WITHOUT DISEASES
I CAN LIVE WITHOUT WAR
I CAN LIVE WITHOUT PEOPLE WITH BAD CHARACTER

Carpe Diem

2008-10-23T01:16:00.000-07:00

heyhey! we had some cyberspace course on blogging internet bul;lyign and ...cant remember, yesterday. whoa. i realised i better change my blogging style...hee... I shall now recommend some movies...

Dragonfly - If you are not that big a fan of horror movies like me, this is the show to watch. it is a mild horror movie. although i'm not sure if its considered horror...but it kinda is. Its a beautiful movie with a great story...(sort of) Worth checking out.

The Freedom Writers - inspiring. awesome. touching. no less...

Bye!

2008-10-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

ok...role call....

Yearbooks received today

Most boring day ever (in school)

Received much sucking up which really made me angry

Realised Atiqah, Faith and Nurin not going roller-blading tmrw cos theres band. whcich sucks cos i wanted to go...

Cheered up with all these colours

Will now say some singers /bands who/which are popular trends but i don't really like.

Demi Lovato- Have you heard her sing? She sounds---comment deleted---.

The Jonas Brothers- Shall not comment cos Ji Young will kill me if i criticize.

Miley Cyrus- Her voice is---comment deleted---. Its ridiculous what little kids will do to meet her.

Oh man. i sound totally mean. No offence was meant for any of the above pple. I was just commenting. sorry if you are hurt although you should not be affected too deeply.

hahahahahahahahaha. Today was the most boring day in school ever. i could just kill myself. it was almost my worst day ever...Being around Nurin and Hillary helped brighten my day a bit. but FYI: you two are sick. lol. this is such a short post. but i can't be bothered right now. bye!

P.S. i have edited this post such that my comments on the singers are not publicly known. but dont worry, i've heard worse singers.

2008-10-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

hello! quick post before i go shower. i just realised people who get stardom young just cant make it big like pple who get stardom older. unles they are lucky. chance of young person getting big for a long time=1 in 1000000. lets see. who shall i pick to example my point...ah!
Sean Kingston. sure. Beautiful Girls and I Can Take You There were successful. but what is going on with him now? we'll just have to wait for his (maybe) second album to shoot one, maybe two, maybe three top hits to see him come back. you dont see paparrazzi stalking him like they do to Brad Pitt or Christina Aguilera. the thing is. these people who are young singers dont last. they are FADS. they come as their albums come.
sometime, a small scandal can help young, even old, stars. take Britney Spears for example.
one example of a great, lucky, young, star is Hilary Duff. She started young, is still young, and is still successful. you still see her on magazine covers. know what i mean? shes esp. lucky cos shes got no big scandal. ok. i have been yammering away.

atiqah, nurin and faith all went cycling on friday and i didnt. so upset cos i cant cycle and they taught atiqah how to cycle that day. i shall just ask them to help me learn! okokok........uhhhhhh.....thats all? tmrw miht get results....some....?
ttfn!

2008-10-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hey!!! EYEs over, and i am soooo ready to play. funny thing is, even though yesterday was the last paper, i keep on thinking i gotta go study. like when i was on the way home yesterday, i was like. shower, study, eat, study, break. then i was like, oh wait. no more papers! haha. that is incredibly freak-like of me.
So....oh yeah. Yesterday was also the first PSLE paper. but i dont have to care, right? Seriously though, time passes super fast. this time last year, i would have been taking that very exam. cant wait for end of school term. cant wait for hols. wait. let me repeat what i said...

EYEs ARE OVER!!! yes. thats. better. i shall now give you movie and tv gossip.

Kung Fu Panda- for those who haven't heard...There will be a return of that unlikely kung fu master we all love, Po. yes. the sequel is slated for release in 2011. Jack Black will be returning to provide the voice of Po while Angelina Jolie is slated to come back to voice Tigress again. this announcement was made by DreamWorks Animation SKG recently. Kung Fu Panda is, in fact, DreamWorks Animation's most successful original film ever.

ok. gotta go so i'll sign off. will continue later!!!

2008-09-10T05:24:00.000-07:00

Theres so much to say and just so little time. Today, I went with Faith and Atiqah and Nurin to get our CIP cards signed. i bought, like, a shrimp PASTE puff thingy and it totally sucked! I really like shrimp but i dont like pastes but i thought, like, what the hell, just give it a try. and i did. and it sucked! take note, Delifrance! consumers, i warn you off this product. yeah. so, i cant find inspiration for my english compo. in fact, come to think of it, i cant find ANY inspiration anymore. everything is so...so...sedated. yeah. everything is fine yet i feel like nothing is going right.
People who know me, know im loud, so when the four of us went to library, we ended up doing some work stuff there. and i was, like, bursting, trying to whisper, trying not to laugh. but i couldnt so i really needed to get out. lol. we were giggling and laughing in the library, and there was this librarian guy who was sitting in that very room reading too. GTs, GTs. (Good Time) yeah. i think i was really bad tempered just now at the old folks home towards atiqah and especially nurin. Sorry, you guys!
and like, i went to the concert and being there made me realise that Shes got so much going on and so much before her. some good, some bad. I really, totally, think shes cool. i love her songs too. oh well. here is her first single ever, made back when she was only seventeen, Complicated. Its really what i think as well.

Complicated
by Avril Lavigne

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is
Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will seeI like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to meTell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no
You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it intohonesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no
Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake itno no
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Lyrics from www.allavril.com

P.S. Lyrics might not be sooo accurate.

2008-09-09T04:50:00.000-07:00

I currently feel very emotional right now. not emo, but emotional. people think emotional means emo, means depressed and blah but emotional is really just having many feelings you cant get rid of. yeah. so i feel that way.

Lately, i dont really feel like studying or even doing homework. and its been real tough not feeling like doing those things cos EYEs are coming and i gotta buck up. its just that ever since i went to the concert, i really, really, wanna be like them or like her. They are all so famous and doing what i wanna do. its crazy. i wanna do what they're doing but i know academics are still important. so i wanna finish my studies. i wanna be like them, younger stars. do i even have a chance? i dont know. but i guess everyone does, right? but, they're all in america, or canada, or somewhere...out of Asia. and if i get a degree or one of those show-offy things, will i still go after these dreams? i think not.

P.S. pple who know me will really understand the above passage. But i think no one will. If you do, tell me, kay? i tried to post my song but i accidentally erased it all. trying to get over it but i cant...lol!

2008-08-26T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hey there! things have been taking sharp turns in my life. yes. exciting, scary, everything. Lets start with today. I didnt go for EL cos i was having major stomach problems. MAJOR. So lets get things straight. Geography was cool. Mrs F took us walking around the school to observe the trees and all. She asked me to take down questions asked and when we got back to classroom, she answered them. it was good to be out of the 4 yellow walls of the classroom. I'm doing okay in school. I cant wait for the term holidays next week. i can wake up whenever i like and it wont even matter! of course, i really gotta work hard cos of EYEs coming up. (EYE=End-of-Year-Examination). soooo...Teachers day is stressing me out. theres so much monitress stuff to do. it really is taking up quite some time and really exhausts me cos i keep on having to chase pple to hand this in, or that, for teachers day. and i seriously used alot of messages on my mobile cos of blast messages. i just send to, like, 15+ pple in class and i ask them to pass it on. yes, 1N you know i have sacrificed. haha.

Lets be honest. I'm not going to lie. Being monitress is totally tiring and restrained. Theres just so much to do, SSSOOOO little time. Sometimes i really ask myself why i'm doing this for the class. why dont i just resign and let the assistant monitress take over? But then i realise i want to be the person who keeps the class going. lol. may sound cliched, but its true. That makes me keep on trying, trying, and trying, to do my best. yup. But i am definitely glad that the school year is ending. What relief i will feel on the last day! lol.

On a lighter note, i was asked if i was going back to my primay school on friday. I really dont know. I think i wont. Although i'm greatful for the school helping me and all, i just dont know what to say about the friends i made there. Lately i've been thinking about this and i realise that the friends i had weren't really pple i clicked with. How will it feel seeing my friends all over again? I have never gone back to pri schl but i feel as though my friends in Cedar are really much nicer than those i made last time. I mean, some of my primary school friends were really nice and all, but for a lot of them, it was just a long, passing acquaintance. Some really hurt me. I wont mention names but there was one who betrayed me, just 'cause she does not have strong will-power. And theres even some who really just plain sucked-up to the teachers. but whatever. i love Cedar now. My friends really rock. THATS ALL THAT MATTERS. The Present.

I want people to like me for who I really am. I am more of myself now. In the present.

2008-08-19T04:48:00.000-07:00

Hello! Yes, havent blogged in a short wile. okay. so. today, didnt present ELDDS thing cos Joanne was not there. she had an appointment. yeah. so....i just realised i like to say 'so' a lot. lol. i had a maths CT today. it was ok but i totally forgot how to find area of a parallelogram. urgh. trouble spelling it.i really hope i get shortlisted for PPLs. The situational test went Okay-ish.

oh yeah. I totally failed my timing for swimming test! haha. so once i failed, instructor said 'rest awhile then try again' i totally didnt want to try again cos i JUST KNEW i would get an even worse timing and...i really did worse. heh. I TOLD YOU SO. but whatevs, doesnt matter much to me. Lao shi and Ms Teh arent going to be in schl for next 3 days. and...heads up to those lucky pple who read my blog, Ms Teh gave SOME of us (4) the answers, with working!!!lol. no cheating lah. Also all lao shi set was one zuo wen (composition) and find meanings of some words she had us highlight in the textbook today during class. yeah. so......ok! The prefect i was attached to was Joy Yuen. she is super nice. at the end (today), she gave us wang wang with little notes attached to it. so nice of her right? only 4 of us under her. she is really helpful and friendly.

well, gonna go write reflections for PPL stuff now! Thanx for listening in!

P.S. U can't always trust the times of my posts. sometimes its according to american time, sometimes local time, sometimes...i dunno. Just don't trust it.

2008-08-12T04:24:00.000-07:00

Hello! yay! finally, tuesday el session ended abt 1 and a half hours ago. and it went alright. i'm passing script writing , editing to Joanne. so, yay. its ok, sort of. BUT now, i'm worried over swimming cos mt test started last week, we did halfway and then only My and Nurin's timings didn't pass and thursday is our last chance to pass. (i think) and i haven't practiced. so, i'm scared! yes, scared. but ok. i know nurin has passed before, once, but i have NEVER EVER passed. so i will try my best. maybe tmrw i'll swim without the PJs? Hmmm...

Oh yeah, i just remembered. I GOT ACCEPTED FOR POTENTIAL PUPIL LEADERS FIRST SHORTLISTING! YAY!!! so i have to follow a prefect, Joy Yuen, around tmrw. with other PPLs (Potential Pupil Leader (s)). Guess what, her duty is turning off corridor lights and making sure no one remains in classroom before assembly. should be ok. quite fun chasing pple out. Lol. I know Jynn Lin got checking Sec 3s attire. haha. Scary Sec 3s. i hope i pass the situational test, supposedly either this coming friday or next monday. the attachment to prefects is till next tuesday, i think.

Yes, i'm really worried about the swimming. nevermind, do my best and thats all. but i thought swimming ends last week of term? not two weeks before? surely i'll get another chance? or maybe theres something else going on. i am so messy that i dun really file, only when teachers ask for files then i look for them so i gotta find stuff by end of this week for lit files. yes. dateline is by friday. ahhh!!! okay. sometimes i really hate EL. But most of the time EL rocks! like 85% of the time it is great. so, yeah. going now. wish me luck for my swimming test! hope i pass! urgh. feel so heavy, and slow, cos i didn't practice swimming. all i can do now is swim tmrw!!!and then its D day!

Thanx 4 listening in!

2008-08-06T21:14:00.000-07:00

Hey, i'm back...Yes, my Maths was not a A1, but an A2. but still good. Chinese test sucked. I got A 1 for History though. Yeah! Yesterday, for once, EL failed to cheer me up, in fact, it made me feel worse. We gotta go into groups of 3 and write plays for ourselves by next tues, EL day. And we gotta 'get ready for slaughtering' next week cos we'll be seriously critiqued harshly. Like, me and melody left, one of the Sec 3s supposed to come. they, 1. did not want to separate from each other. and 2. DID NOT WANT TO WORK WITH US? yeah. thats what i think. in the end, Joanne was 'forced' to come join us, and melody and her were so quiet i had to start the whole convo. It was so awkward and i was suffering cos i had to keep on egging them on. Oh yeah, so i write and they'll add on and edit. Get this, we will have to perform after exams. this script thing is making me dread EL next tuesday. Im seriously upset. Worse, tmrw theres swimming. i mean, i like swimming and all, but, i am one of 2 pple who cannot pass the timed swim. i really wanna improve though. I just realised the song i'm listening to now is really, especially meaningful right now. Whatever Will Be, by Vanessa Hudgens. Seriously, all the meanings are almost spot on. I will try my best, however hard it may be, however much i have to do. But Why am i so Afraid? (Vanessa Hudgens, again) To tell the truth, I don't hate Vanessa Hudgens because of that incident. i mean, everyday, teens around the world are creating bigger messes than her but she is targeted just 'cause shes a celebrity. i mean, other pple who murder, steal, or do worse stuff don't get pointed at so much just cos they're not famous. its really unfair. And yeah, i'm not afraid to say it, but her songs are good. Really catchy. It was just a stroke of bad luck that those pics got released onto the Internet. I mean, i don't love her and i'm not crazy about her, and i haven't done things like her, but she is not a bad person and i still don't mind her. I'm just saying what i think is right.
I used to be crazy over how these HSM stars and Miley Cyrus were so lucky. But now, i know its their luck, Hollywood and all. Yeah, i am still a bit jealous that the're earning big bucks but i'm not affected by it now.
I know one day my time will come, when i will feel that i am at the top, however long it may take. But i know, even with these problems, i am still lucky.
Yes ELDDS script is killing me. Performance too. Just Tuesday is killing me.
And then everyone in class has me pegged me down as not so girl-ish but what if i go to school with a small hairband, or some clips cos my hair is really too long, and getting in my eyes? What will they say? what will they think? some pple really have FIXED ideas. yupp...
Anyways, ttyl! (FYI: it means Talk To You L8er)

...

2008-07-30T20:34:00.000-07:00

Yes, pple, long time no see. this blog is so not crowded. updates: english oral went fine, maths CT went fine...cos...I JUMPED FROM AN E8 TO AN A1!!! yes, omg! rejoice! hardwork paid off! what else...ELDDS SYF auditions, went Okay with a capital 'O' but i wont know results until next week or more. so thats over. yes. todays science and history CTs. For science, i couldn't really do the cheem cell question, and DOES ANYBODY KNOW WHAT ELEMENT IS USED TO COAT GLASS TO MAKE MIRRORS? ok and history, the first essay was okay. the second judgemental one, i was supposed to write 2 efficiencies and 2 inefficiencies. i totally forgot the last inefficiency and time was almost up anyway so i just skipped to the conclusion. but it was alright lah. geog CT is this friday. i'm going over to Su Wai's to crash write for our class newspaper. I wanna make sure 1N does our best, and that we are the best! (well sorta.) okay...going now, buh-bye!

tests...

2008-07-22T19:51:00.000-07:00

Yes, hey from my house. ok. today, was literature CT. it was okay, definitely felt better than the other lit CTs. and then, after schl, it was english oral. ok lah. problem (or not) is, that my examiner was the ELDDS teacher in charge! so, was nervous and all but it was Okay lah. Yesterday, was half day, racial harmony day with pasar malam and all. not supposed to be half day, but cos Cedar got 4 national championship titles for sports this year (so far), we got a half day! yay! Su Wai, Kimberly, Shearin, Nurin and i all crossed the road to eat roti prata. Expensive, but whatever. later on, Emilia joined us though she just sat there listening to us talk. yes. then, took bus home golf lesson. and studying for today's lit CT. BTW, we talked crap as usual. just empty convo.

we had nominations to day for Potential Pupil Leaders. 5 nominated by class. so, i got nominated, with Nurin, Ji Young, Su Wai and Faith. yes. but the whole thing is TOUGH. first, these nominations. then, Screening and Shortlisting. followed by an Attachment scheme to PCs and then Assessment (situational test. no, i am not joking.) and then Shortlisting again. Followed by Interview by PL Com., PC EXCO, and PSL EXCO. yes and then, Final Approval by School EXCO and teachers. its so looonng!!! i hope i'll survive and not get booted out...plus, on the APPLICATION FORM, i gotta fill in my score for semester one which were quite shitty, apart from History. but, i really really really times a hundred wanna become a PC or PSL. but if i dun get it, its ok. cos it was not meant to be i guess. but for now, i want it. i just hope i dun get booted out right after they see me lousy scores...boo. Its like i dunno all my primary school friends anymore, i mean, they all went to either NYGH or RGSS or Crescent GSS or RVH or whatever. but alot definitely went NY and RG. uhh... they're so distant. but i do feel like Cedar is great, and i like the pple here. (more than RGPS?) maybe. ahhh well, can only start studying more for upcoming CTs!

2008-07-15T20:47:00.000-07:00

ok.
firstly, no SEL today because of arranging tables for Listening Compre. so, yay!!! and, no auditions today for ELDDS, may have next week. We instead watched Romeo and Juliet but its the version with Claire Daines and Leonardo DiCaprio. I actually have seen it before, like, 2 times?! so. next week EL, either go through the movie or auditions. how upsetting. in a weird way. i finally changed the blog skin! whoo! if anyone wants me to link them, pls tell me!
BTW the Romeo and Juliet was, twisted so, dunno if u pple will like or not. but, basically, i think the story ending was kinda silly cos Juliet pretended to die, so she could run off with Romeo, then Romeo thought she realy died and went to the church. actually, the pastor already told of her plans but the letter never got there. so, romeo got some poison. he was like, hugging juliet and stuff and juliet moved a bit. but he DID NOT NOTICE! and he was about to drink the poison, juliet open her eyes and saw him. she was reaching up to touch his face when he drank all the poison! so stupid. he didn't even see she was waking. and by that time, too late. romeo saw juliet and lay down, surprised and dying. juliet watched romeo die and then shot her head and that was HER suicide. sooo stupid.
But the acting was not bad. so, yeah. thats basically it.

first post

2008-07-14T19:49:00.000-07:00

hihihi, i know i'm supposed to be all: hey! this is me! i like blahblahblah and my favourite blahblahblah is blah. whatever. i know myself so i'm not gonna say much. most pf the pple reading will know me anyways. so...tmrws my ELDDS SYF auditions (most probably). i am reeealllly nervous but, nevermind. my group for SEL presentation thingy is at a lost for what to do tmrw...STRESS. Mrs VK was at my neck this morning, something abt meet the parents reply slips, presentation error or whatever. at least i got that sorted out. tests are coming and i am unprepared! nevermind. i resolve to: studystudystudy...yes. i will. gonna look for blogskins soon... am currently eating a bowl of aloe vera pulp cubes in the lemon syrup with ice. mmm...aloe vera...(the lemon syrup does NOT taste like lemon) I really like 1N, its like everyone has different characters. we're like a mixed up bunch. we don't really have a strong bond but we definitely have some connection going on. i think. ok, i better stop that or i will begin to sound too cliche or whatever. there is so much going on right now, its muddling. but luckily, i think i can still pull through. right?

GUITAR HERO ROCKS!

Wish me luck for SEL and auditions!

M